Okie~~!
After entries of my holiday blah blahs,
it's time to decide and let y'all know about what I plan to study after SPM.
Even though I know that I don't have many readers. ;)
For those who know me personally,
y'all know that I plan to study music and embark on a journey to become a music producer.
And I've been working hard towards it for the past few years.
I even got a whole plan ready for me to put things into action.
Yeah, at least that was Plan A.
Due to some super obvious realistic reason,
I have to ditch Plan A and come up with a Plan B,
and Plan B needs to be created, fast.
Before I share Plan B,
do take some precious time and read out how I felt,
when I was brain storming for Plan B.
Truth be told, I felt totally lost.
I don't know what to do, where to go.
So, I ended up being ignorant.
I refused to think about my future and spent time taking holidays.
Using it to numb my worries.
Yes, It's unhealthy.
But, it hurts to think about it.
Reality strikes,
so I went and checked out local universities.
My Plan B, is to work in Starbucks for 1 (freaking) year,
and then go for a Bachelor's degree in language and linguistics.
Most probably, I'll be taking Japanese, Spanish, or French.
OR
I'll just take up mass communication,
and find something (interesting) to do about it.
OR
IF I go for singing audition and actually breakthrough
into the entertainment industry...
(which is very much of an Obese sense of hope)
PLEASE GOD!!! >.< I don't want a Plan C!!! T^T I'm already really scared now. A lot of "what-ifs" pops into my head. Aargh!! I'm sorry for not asking for a plan!
Yeah, so that's about it lah...
My update.
Hopefully, I can continue being an otaku till my last breath,
no matter what road I choose to take.
composed by Mahlau @12:19 AM
Thursday, December 24, 2009
♥ I Ate A Lot ♥
If I don't count the time I was in the (diarrhorea-inflicting) Camp,
These past 4 days, I've been eating like mad!
I think the camp dances increased my metabolic rate...
Anyway, I tried a few simple but wonderful dishes... XD
Lobster + Dong Fen in Soup with cili padi
This is by far the best thing ever! XD
The soup is like golden colour cuz of the egg yolk,
and the cili padi really emphasized the flavor of the lobster.
Crispy Meat
Pork cut into very thin slices and fried it crispy with dark sauce. I love it~
Ebi Tenpura Set Lunch from Pasta Zanmai
OMG, it was sooo worth eating!
Cause the whole set consisted of... -Miso Soup -A small bowl (like a size of your face) of spaghetti, with Prawns Tenpura and their own special sauce... X3 -A plate (size and length of a medium bitter gourd) of soy sauce rice covered with slices of unagi (eel)!
All the above with only RM20+
Other simple food delights which I personally favoured... -Half fried egg on toast + cheese
-Chicken porridge + cili padi meatballs
-Pork's foot (Damn nice!) -Pork ribs -Curry chicken with my family's special blend of herbs
-Fried butter prawns -Some expensive fish which I don't know its name -Japanese curry with prawns -Freshly brewed coffee every morning (not instant coffee oh..)
-Some chinese tea (I don't know the name as well) -Scrambled eggs of 3 kinds (normal egg, salted egg, and century egg) -Clay pot tofu with mixed vegetables -Hershey's Chocolate Bar with Almonds -Dragon fruit enzyme drink
I think that's all gua... ^^"
Oh dear, I'm going home tomorrow.
Won't get to live and eat like this anymore.
Stupid la, I blog this and it made me emo pulak...=="
(Sigh)
Well, life moves on.
Hope that I'll be able to enjoy like this again.
Thanks to my uncle and auntie.
God Bless you all.
composed by Mahlau @11:53 PM
♥ Gothic Lolita, More Than Meets the Eye ♥
I was browsing photos for inspiration for next year's Comic Fest...
And I stumbled upon these hot stuff... *drools*
This is just about Goth-Loli.
There's many more different types too.
So, which one is your favourite? XD
Mine's the red + black dress! XD
Sorry about the images' size...
composed by Mahlau @2:40 AM
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
♥ Sudden Change of Plan ♥
I thought I'm going to spend my day
sitting in front of the PC the whole day,
And read manga after manga,
In my cousin's room, on the top floor roof...
But, my aunt just told me that we're going to Genting Highlands!! XD
Obviously, they are going to the casino...
But, this means I get to roam around with my cousins... XD
composed by Mahlau @12:48 PM
♥ Simple Happiness ♥
This morning,
I woke up around 10:30...
I had porridge for breakfast.
Simple, but it's good enough.
Off to manga land! XD
composed by Mahlau @12:03 PM
Monday, December 21, 2009
♥ LFAF 014 ♥
I'm back. I'm happy to see You again. Even though You never left me.
The past few days was one of the most difficult days I've ever experienced. I almost couldn't handle it. But, only when I'm down in the dumps, I'm able to regconize Your light.
My heart has been dry for the past few months. I couldn't make out songs anymore. My guitar felt like its soul has disappear. Whenever I strum, it sounded empty. I'm still looking for the fragments of my soul.
I'm looking forward to a revival.
Rain down on me Flood my dry soul Breathe Life into me again
I couldn't sing. My voice had begin to sound awful each time I start to sing. This problem occurred since August. And It seemed to get worse. Should I continue as a worship leader?
What have I done? What can I do? I ask myself But to find no sound, no reply.
The past few days I went to a 3 Days 2 Nights nationwide youth camp organized by NSQ*... (It's something like Persatuan Belia Selangor)
480 youths aged 15-25 all gathered at PLKN Pelangi Hill Resort, Kerling.
The camp was really fun!
LOTS of energy-draining activities for energetic young people like us. XD
I took very few photos cause' we have to hand in our valuables to the staff.
And they kept it during the entire camp.
So, you can't see people texting or listening to mp3's there.
The only (sad, frustrating, and pathetic) part is...
I fell sick.
Not just any sickness, but the worst you can get in a camp.
Diarrhorea.
Suffered like crap!
After I took the medicine, nothing's changed.
So, I ended up being anti-social.
I'm sorry for not being able to take the chance to get to know more friends.
Worse, my face projected something like, "F*** off, I'm not talking!"
Throughout this camp, I've learned MANY things.
Learned how to be a better leader from other people's mistakes.
Learned to mix around with people. Learned to adapt in a place where I knew absolutely no one! (Damn insecure!)
Learned not to judge people.
Learned to accept people that most will choose to ignore.
Learned that our society is VERY realistic, even in a camp, money revolves around our activities.
I've also discovered my (pathetic) weaknesses.
I'm not sociable.
I tend to stick by myself. In other words, I'm a loner.
I have problems in handling other people's stares.
I have weak hand-eye coordination!
I have trust issues. I have weak relational and conversational skills.
BUT! It is also because of this camp, I noticed something more about myself.
I'm able to regconize good leadership in others.
I'm able to contribute with what I have.
I'm unique, and so is everyone.
I'm not the best, but I am who I am, and I will not force myself to be who I'm not.
In this camp, I get to see MANY people who are talented in various areas.
I really respect and admire that. Especially the camp staff!
Here are some videos of the dances we did during camp. :D
Lots of it! I enjoyed it whenever I wasn't having a stomach ache.
There's MANY more dances we did. The moves are all well choreographed, Bravo!
But, for me, due to my illness, it was Torturous!! T_T
Anyway...
Yes, there were some good-looking guys. And many pretty girls.
But, that was all.
Haha!
You can't expect me to go around flirting and sticking close to the guys like bees to honey. It's not what I do.
I might join this camp again next year,
Depending whether do I still have the guts to do so...
I decided to join this year is because 2 of my cousins asked me to.
And I wanted to spend some time with them.
But, we ended up in different rooms and groups. = ="
Thestrongestfeeling I felt during the entire camp was,I miss God.
Even though He's right there with me, I still miss Him.
I felt damn lonely.
I thought I was gonna cry.
Worse, my phone has low line so I couldn't call and talk to someone.
I felt trapped in that place.
In the camp, I witnessed 480 youths jumping and dancing but...
It felt so different compared to the time I was jumping and shouting during Praise & Worship.
Conclusion
I really encourage we, as youngsters to join the camp.
It really helps you to grow in different areas.
I would've been able to enjoy myself to the maximum!if I didn't fall sick.
But, definitely not for those siu jie/siu yecause it's a tough camp.
composed by Mahlau @2:55 PM
Thursday, December 17, 2009
♥ Don't Bother to Figure This Out ♥
看到了照片
又是老样子
只邀请
你们想粘着的人
最近发生了一些事
你们应该比以前
更不爽我了
呵呵
不错啊
我不会再问原因
"为什么我没有被邀请?"
我不需要知道
一次又一次
遇到这种事
使我更加肯定
我会与你们
保持距离
我讨厌
你们的行事态度
其实只是件小事
只是我把
我和你们之间的交情
看得太重而已
我很想骂人
却决定收声
我们
就像现在这样
保持着
笑里藏刀
口蜜腹剑
的关系吧!
毕竟未来很难说
可能有一天
我会需要你们
虽然
我
非常非常非常
非常!
不想有这一天
composed by Mahlau @12:20 AM
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
♥ And It's Over ♥
SPM'S OVER
SPM'S OVER
SPM'S OVER
SPM'S OVER
SPM'S OVER
SPM'S OVER
SPM'S OVER
SPM'S OVER
SPM'S OVER!!!
I went job-hunting for the past few days.
Damn fun! XD
I went for an interview yesterday, and I got a job! XD
I can't wait to start working.
Because after SPM, I kind of lose my goal in life.
So, it's good to work, save money, and party. XD
Feel free to visit me during my job.
Those who don't know where I work, just log in to Facebook.
Malas nak cakap kat sini sebab ada stalker kat blog ni.
But if he is my friend in fb, then whatever lah..
Blacklisted.
composed by Mahlau @12:19 AM
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
♥ I Just Have To Say ♥
Recently, there's a stalker.
It started in Juyi's blog.
Now, it's on the move to other bloggers.
Honestly, I laughed when I saw "it" on my blog. XD
Actually, "it" needs a lot of our love and attention.
So, all people granted with love, please love this poor creature.
God made us for a reason.
I don't question God for "its" exixtence.
Nor "its" intelligence.
Any questions, reservations, etc, please contact me via handphone before 14th Dec 09.
017 3503 706
*Prank calls will be unattended*
composed by Mahlau @3:52 PM
♥ Mini Prom!! ♥
Date: 16th Dec 09
Venue: Chui Lok Restaurant in Seri Rampai
Theme: Stylish and Trendy
Places limited: 100 seats
Price: Below RM50!
We're still organizing.
Booking is available to all 5th formers. *Note: Please be aware that majority of guests are chinese.
More details coming up!! Stay tuned!! XD
composed by Mahlau @10:16 AM
Saturday, December 5, 2009
♥ Outing～ ♥
YESTERDAY
Movie
Nicole, Ethan, and I went to Sungei Wang/Times Square to watch a movie.
It's called JUMP, directed by Stephen Fung.
Story by Stephen Chow! XD
It's a typical cinderella type of story
but with a FUNNY twist..
It's about a girl from a village who wants to break into the city.
She has a strong passion for dancing.
So, she worked in a factory in the morning,
a cleaner in a dance school by night.
The boss of the school is a playboy and rich businessman.
He noticed her dance potential and lets her learn for free to enter a dance competition.
She fell for him but a rich businessman + jaqoon village girl = ???
Kitty Zhang (张雨绮) plays the main role.
She can really act!
Her "jaqoon-ness" is outstanding!
As usual, Stephen Chow makes sure the main girl looks VERY ugly,
at least it's only at the beginning of the movie.
Edison Chen was supposed to play the rich playboy businessman.
But, due to The Scandal,
the crew decide to hire another actor to take his place...
Personally, I really like to watch Edison in movies.
I was like mini-fan of him.
He is very professional and I like that. =)
Anyway, the actor that took his place is...
Leon Jay Williams (立威廉) !! XD (sorry, I couldn't find a large size image..>.<)
I didn't know that he's a Singaporean.
In fact, I didn't even know him.
I'm sorry.
But, he played the role very well. Respect!
Kyaa~! XD
The movie was Very enjoyable.
Makan
After the movie, our stomachs were crying out for help.
So, we went to this place called BBQ ...some thing...
Sorry, I couldn't remember the name of the restaurant.
Anyway, we ordered a Family Set add-on a set of Lamb.
The restaurant concept is some thing like shabu-shabu...
So, we have to cook our own food right on the table.
When the waitress came with the food...
O. M. GAWD.
We had beef, chicken, fish, squid, pork bacon and lamb
ALL IN ONE MEAL!
Of course there's a BIG BUNCH of veggie and some udon...
But the number of different types of meat we were having was just crazy!
Just imagine...
Eating this...
this,
this,
this,
this,
this!
AND a BIG BUNCH of this...
3 GIRLS eating all of the above...
It took us two hours to finish the whole thing!
That made me SO full, I couldn't eat dinner.
But, guess what?
I went and got myself a slice of Secret Recipe's cheesecake for supper！
One slice was really full too, cuz' of the lunch we had.
Goodbye, hot bod...
Goodbye, abs...
And... HULLO~ Barrel...
Hahahaha......XD
But, it was TONS of fun...
I enjoyed the outing...^^
composed by Mahlau @12:57 PM
♥ And So Far... ♥
BC
BM ENGLISH SEJARAH MORAL MATHS ADDMATHS BIO PHYSICS CHEMISTRY
TWO MORE SUBJECTS LEFT! XD
I'm anticipating my freedom~
Oh Dear God...>.<
Next Tuesday is Chemistry...
I'm gonna go study later..=p
Goodbye straight A's...
Goodbye~
Anyway, Physics was pretty crappy to me.
Thank God they didn't ask to describe the turning of motors and flux cutting!
Or I'll surely fail the paper...
I studied, okay.
I just couldn't remember.
Honestly, I didn't really like the questions.
They asked for very few calculations...
And I prefer calculations cuz' I relate better with numbers rather than explainations
